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Cheater

I’ve been a bad girl.  Pasta and cookies and cakes and Starbucks.  

Got a little depressed last night.  Haven’t “exercised” since Tuesday.  Hopefully scrimmage this morning cheers me up.  Saturdays sometimes have the opposite effect and irritate me.  We’ll see…

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Suck on that, Cake Pops. Ha!

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Food: 2331

  • Honey Nut Cheerios w/ 1% milk, banana, coffee, sugar free pumpkin spice creamer
  • Apple, Greek Yogurt w/ Granola and fruit
  • Wheat bread w/ reduced fat swiss, tuna salad (w/ greek yogurt) sammie.  … four cake pops…
  • 1% cottage cheese, banana, Protein Chewy Bar
  • Imitation Crab meat, carrots, wine

Exercise:

  • Cheater Cheater Pumpkin Eater, only 4041 steps.  😦  Sad Day.

Oi.  So yesterday I got to school thinking I’d have time before basketball to take Reilly for a walk.  I was wrong.  As a result, I sat on my rear most of the day and didn’t get very many steps in at all.  😦

The cake pops called to me again at lunch.  OMFG they are soooo good.  On the bright side, I did figure out what flavor they were on the fourth one yesterday–amaretto.  With coconut in white chocolate rolled in almonds.  Holy heaven on earth.

Since I thought I’d be heading home prior to the basketball games, I also didn’t pack a dinner.  Which worked out.  Probably because of the cake pops.  I spread my lunch and snacks out through the day and made it til I got home, starving.  Managed to remind myself about the cake pops and eat moderately rather than ravish the pantry.  I passed on Tim’s first offer of a glass of wine, but realized I probably wouldn’t sleep w/o it and ended up having a small glass (for me–prolly still a large glass for anyone else.)

On the bright side…  managed to shed those vacation pounds!  Bam.  Weighed in at 149.6 this morning.  Still a few tenths heavier than my lightest, but sweet!  And Sweets practice tonight and Spin Class tomorrow and Speed/Off skates training Friday and Body Pump Saturday mean I’m probably ending this thing on a positive note.  Which makes these last two weeks of hell worth it.  (This all assumes I don’t completely fuck myself over at Dane’s party Friday night.)  I may have to do a final weigh/measure in on Friday instead of Sat/Sun.   We’ll see.

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Cake Pop Glory

Food: 1758

  • Turkey Sausage Muffin, Milk, Coffee, Sugar free Pumpkin Spice Creamer
  • Apple, Greek Yogurt w/ Nature Valley granola and fruit
  • Tim’s Chili, Sour Cream, Cheddar Cheese, Fritos, VitarRain Sport, three Cake Pops
  • Carrots

Exercise:

  • Reilly Walk
  • Derby Practice

So I didn’t eat as much yesterday.  I think the protein in my breakfast kept me full through the morning, and then I was cognizant of the calories in my lunch.  Chili w/ fritos, sour cream, and cheddar cheese.  And three Cake Pops  (Colin’s mom sent Cake Pops as her Monday treat.  OMG.  Delicious.)  So I didn’t eat before practice, just carrots afterward.

Practice was meh.  Its a level-up week, so there were several girls new to Mondays.  Lots of standing around, and some basic drills.  I didn’t get much of a workout in.

Which really isn’t going to bode well for the four cake pops and 0 exercise I’m rocking today…  😦

In other news…  Blew and I are going to be Contenders Captains.  Yay!  And Rad Die…  … well.  *Blushes.*  Rad Die was asking me about my derby wife.  So I jokingly asked if that was a proposition, to which Die said “just wondering.”  So I told her all about my Feist E. One and… and…  and…  well Die said too bad and…  well then we talked some more and I asked if she was courting me and she said yes.  *BLUSHING PROFUSELY.*  o.m.g.  Don’t tell anyone.

Soo… needless to say I’m having a pretty good day.  😀

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Buckling Down. Again. For realz this time. No–really.

Food: 2271/ 1772  😦 

  • Turkey Sausage Sammie w/ 1% milk, coffee, sugarfree vanilla creamer
  • Apple, Yoplait Greek w/ Fruit and Granola
  • …  Two Dove Dark Chocolates.
  • …  Two mini KitKat bars…
  • Two more Dove Dark Chocolates.
  • Ham and light swiss on wheat.  Naked Green Machine (10 oz).  1% Cottage Cheese.
  • … four more Dove Dark Chocolates (Karen put them in my hand–not my fault!  Ok she put three in my hand.  They were gone before I tasted them, so I needed one more…)
  • Giant Leafy Greens salad w/ cherry tomatoes, sugar snap peas, imitation crab meat and light italian dressing with 1% milk

Exercise:

  • 1 mile walk w/ Reilly
  • Spin Class

Ugh.  I need to do some yoga.  After 9 days with virtually no exercise, my legs are tight and sore after spinning. I’m just so tired.  😦 I may yet rally.  We’ll see.  It would burn more calories which would increase my caloric intake which I (of course) exceeded.

Then again I’ve got about 500 calories worth of chocolate in there.  *Sigh*  I didn’t really try to resist them.  They are in the library now.  On my desk.  Staring at me.  Calling to me, saying “I am your favorite kind of chocolate.  Think how creamy and delicious I am.  You know you love me more than Hershey’s dark chocolate, because I am Dove Dark chocolate and I melt in your mouth.”  So then I put one in my mouth and suck to feel it melt away whist coating my tongue in its chocolate glory, dissolving to delicious nothingness.  But then I get greedy and want more chocolatey goodness so I bite into it–another wonderful sensation altogether–and chew and swallow it’s creamy glory.  Then I’m sad I didn’t let it dissolve so I try again.  Same failure.  I should give up.  (You really need to eat those things with a good Pinot Noir anyway, or it’s a complete waste.)

I commented on the hardship of chocolate accessibility on facebook today, and Dosa and Sunny are agreed to continue this TBT hell another two weeks, so I said fuck it and jumped on that bandwagon, too.  At least we’ll be miserable (and skinny bitches) together.  Rowdy I’ve noticed has responded with “likes” and amused comments, but no affirmation of another two weeks.  Piper and Newt are completely ignoring us crazies, though. (Can’t say I blame them.)  Anyway, December 15th.  We can make it.

I have to say, though, if I’m going through this misery another two weeks, Ima fucking do this shit right.  No more damn chocolate all day long.  No more cheat-kends or full cheat days.  I’m not gonna say no cheating, because that’s a recipe for disaster, but I don’t want to go all out ever.  That’s what got me off the bandwagon in the first place.  So cheat meals or cheat treats.  Maybe like one a day.  One glass of wine or one chocolate or if it’s a “cheat day,” one meal or one six pack.  No going nuts. Something like that.  We’ll see how it goes.

As I was warming up for Spin Class this evening, perusing the December Fitness Guide, looking at all the classes I might be able to attend during finals week (when we have half days at school) or during my two week break, I thought “maybe I should TBT another three weeks–til December 21!”  And about 25 minutes later when the sweat started pouring and my legs started shaking I realized that was the crazy talking.  The point is to change habits and move forward positively.  Exercising more.  Eating healthier and less.  Managing those extra “empty” calories.  I’m going longer because I don’t think I’m there yet.  I’m giving myself an extra two weeks to get there.  To remind myself what empty calories can do and that I am capable of avoiding them.

Before this TBT, I didn’t exercise outside of derby.  I won’t stop when TBT is over, and I shouldn’t.  Continuing to exercise after TBT ends doesn’t mean I should extend TBT–I shouldn’t.  I should move forward with these new habits I’ve taught myself.  After the 15th, though, I will be done with this “dieting” bullshit.  I fucking hate it.  Hate.  Loathe.  Ughhh.  But it’s good for me, and I need to learn to manage my caloric intake better.

I think that’s all for now.

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Chocolate Layer Bars

In terms of bogs not to follow during TBT, http://cantstayoutofthekitchen.com/ totally heads the list. I’ve got about nine posts just like this one in my feed. Killing me.  In terms of delicious looking food.  Holy dear lord I want to make everything on this site.

Can't Stay Out of the Kitchen

Teresa’s Bake Shop – Christmas Cookie edition – 2012

I love these spectacular chocolate bars. Even while I was cutting them I could smell the wonderful fragrance of almond extract and, of course, chocolate! They have a sugar cookie-type crust, a chocolate filling made with cream cheese, diced walnuts, and almond extract. Then the topping is made from the same ingredients as the crust only crumbled on top like streusal.

We love these amazing bar-type cookies. I found the recipe in a magazine years ago and have made several modifications to it to get it exactly the way we like them. Unfortunately, when I typed the recipe into my cookbook back in the early 1980s I failed to note where the recipe originated from. We have made this recipe several times for our Christmas Cookie Extravaganza. I’ve also made it lots of times whenever I wanted a delicious dessert to…

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Ponytails and Cocktails: two things that will always rock.

Food:

  • Honey Nut Cheerios, milk, coffee, sugarfree vanilla creamer
  • Yoplait greek w/ fruit and granola, Coconut Luna Bar, almonds
  • Subway turkey and ham w/ avocado on wheat, all the veggies, honey mustard (no cheese!)
  • Handfulls and handfulls and handfulls of homemade carmel corn.  So much all my teeth rot out after my fillings fell out.  Sooooo good.
  • banana… dark chocolate cherry almond clusters…
  • Chicken Cordon Bleu w/ steamed brussel sprouts, rye bread, and wine.  (And Flexeril.)

Exercise:

  • Longish Reilly walk

My back has been bugging me all day, progressively worse as the day’s worn on.  So I’m mixing a flexeril wine cocktail.  Fucking badass.  My liver prolly doesn’t like it though… Skipped practice tonight.  With the back and needing to pack…  prolly a good decision.  It’s a good thing Frida’s off the TBT or she’d be giving me a beating for sure.  😉

 

So, yeah.  Needless to say I’m basically off the TBT wagon.  Ugh.  I’ve worked so hard and done sooo well I don’t want to fuck it all up now!  So close.  Conversely…  my original goals are centered on derby improvement, physical strength, drinking more water, etc.  I’m doing great there.  It’s just I’ve been drinking more, eating pizza, and gaining a few lbs.  We’ll see how it goes.

In other news…  my badass Bijou bruise?  The one I refused to Arnicare b/c I wanted Bijou to see it?  Yeah.  Black and giant.  And I’m rocking the bikini in two days.  Fuuuuck.  Why don’t I ever plan ahead?  Oh well.

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Yep.

Friday: 2414 Calories

Food:

  • Cheerios w/ 1% milk, coffee, creamer
  • Apple, Yogurt w/ fruit and granola, almonds
  • Chicken breast and swiss on wheat bread w/ Diet Dr Pepper, banana, and three brownies…
  • Triscuits w/ avocado and salmon, carrot, vodka.  Lots of vodka.

Exercise:

  • Long walk w/ Reilly

Saturday: 5000+ calories

  • Quinoa bowl w/ maple syrup, walnuts, apple slices.  Three eggs w/ salmon and avocado.
  • Peanut Butter and Banana w/ honey on wheat.  Milk.
  • Pizza.  (4 slices.) Garlic knot.  Beer.  Vodka.  Lots and lots and lots of vodka.  With olives.  It was mayhem.

Exercise:

  • Body Pump
  • 2 40 minute bouts

My legs hurt.  That is all.

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