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The end is near…

Food: 2800+

  • Honey Nut Cheerios + 1% milk, banana, coffee, sugar free hazelnut creamer
  • apple, greek yogurt w/ fruit and granola
  • SunDried tomato wrap with spinach, grilled chicken, greek yogurt cucumber dressing, mushroom and reduced fat swiss cheese.  Energy bites.  Crystal Ice.  Zone Protein Bar.  Clementines.
  • Irish Soda Bread
  • Smoothie: frozen berries, spinach, pom, greek yogurt, honey, whey protein, banana.
  • Yogurt Pretzels.  Wine.

Exercise:

  • Reilly Walk
  • 50 Push ups
  • 50 situps

Basically the only thing I’m succeeding at this TBT is my 50 push ups and 50 sit ups a day.  Yesterday was “Bread Day” and there was homemade bread in the room where we had our Department Chair meeting.  I dramatically turned my back to it and ate none, despite the delicious smelling cream cheese covered bagel the woman sitting next to me was eating.  I indulged only in some extra coffee.  I starved all the way till lunch, despite being busy and my snack.

I had a huge lunch.  Then I came upstairs and jammed on my protein bar and snuck across the hall for a piece of bread with a bit of cream cheese and stole a handful of Dove chocolates.  *sigh.*

Made a huge smoothie disaster for dinner.  (I never use enough fluid and the stupid things won’t blend and I find that irritating.  Highly irritating.)  It tasted great, btw.  Went home, jammed on handfuls of yogurt pretzels and a glass of wine.

Today is Parent-Teacher conferences, so I will indulge in an Italian Dinner provided by our parents, and I don’t even feel bad.  Tomorrow, there are no classes at the gym I can go to.  I will walk Reilly, do my push/sit ups, and… I dunno.  I need to do some kind of at home workout, the trouble is I suck at those.  I have Sunny’s Frida Awesome Jammer workout.  I could do that…  we’ll see.

After tonight, Basketball is over for me, Conferences are out of the way, I should be able to get back to my routine.

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Cleats, you say?

Food: 3393/1653 (oops…)

  • 2 egg muffins w/ cheese, banana, 1% milk, coffee w/ sugar free caramel macchiato creamer
  • 2 egg muffins, an apple, some candy corn
  • Greek Yogurt Tuna Salad on Wheat with Spinach! (yum) And Yoplait Greet w/ fruit and granola.  Colin’s mama’s no bake oatmeal cookies (3…)
  • Berry Blast Naked w/ Greek Yogurt & Pom
  • Reduced Fat cream cheese, cucumber, smoked salmon on triscuits
  • 1/2 glass white wine, 3 1/2 glasses red wine.  3 dove dark chocolates.

Exercise:

  • 50 toe push ups
  • 50 sit ups (25 floor cobras, 25 leg lifts)
  • Reilly Walk
  • Leslie Spin

I peed like a mofo yesterday.  Turns out the “monthly gift” approaches rapidly.  And I feel great. So maybe that outburst Sunday was related.

I had five packages arrive at noon yesterday!  My black Levi’s Skinny jeans–which don’t fit–so Rebel, I will be returning them.  😉  Sheets, car-charger, birth control (I wear NuvaRing so it comes in a refrigerated package which amuses me.  It must be expensive to ship.  But I don’t care, b/c with insurance those bitches run me $90 a piece and shipping is “free.”) and… my Spin Shoes!!! YAY.

I was so excited, I got a matching outfit together and on with my new shoes (including black socks so I was totally black & teal,) then rushed off to Spin Class early so Leslie (who is always 20-30 minutes early) could help me figure them out.)  So first.  Leslie wasn’t there (apparently she had to emergency-teach a Zumba class.)  The nice chatty white bike shorts guy who stole my bike was there, though, and since I now ride the bike next to it, I asked him for help.  He was really nice and helpful and fortunately only the outer thigh part of his shorts is white.  (The rest is gray/black.)

*Blushes.*  Fortunately there were only three people there.  Him, a nice lady, and this old guy who wears jeans and a sweatshirt and doesn’t really even use the cages for his feet.  I need to go to a bike store and get fitted for/purchase cleats for them to clip in to the pedals.  Oops.  I thought they looked funny.  I was amused but also embarrassed, so I immediately text Rowdy and Sunny.  Then Leslie showed up, and guess what???  Same shoes as me!!!  (Hers had cleats, though… ) How cool is that?  😀  (I text Sunny and Rowdy this as well.  Details.  They’re important.)

So I used the cages yet again.  *Sigh.*  The shoes were still better than my Nike’s even not clipped in.  They’re sturdier, so.  Well.  Think brown bombers to Riedell skates…. without toe stops… or wheels… *blinks.*  Anyway spin was hard but super awesome and I was glad to be there (but even more glad when it was over.)

I ate a lot, but I dunno.  Other than the candy corn, cookies, chocolates, and wine… 😉  Okay, I guess that’s a lot of extra calories, huh?  I need to get my shit together.

Practice & Scrimmage tonight… excited.  I wanna try the assist I “invented” Monday.  Likely won’t be effective at a FC scrimmage, but hey.  Worth a try.  Oh, also, I wrote this really dramatic pep talk for “The World” for Saturday.  Wait for it.  It’ll be EPiC’ly amusing.  (And humorous, I think…  we’ll see.)

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Buckling Down. Again. For realz this time. No–really.

Food: 2271/ 1772  😦 

  • Turkey Sausage Sammie w/ 1% milk, coffee, sugarfree vanilla creamer
  • Apple, Yoplait Greek w/ Fruit and Granola
  • …  Two Dove Dark Chocolates.
  • …  Two mini KitKat bars…
  • Two more Dove Dark Chocolates.
  • Ham and light swiss on wheat.  Naked Green Machine (10 oz).  1% Cottage Cheese.
  • … four more Dove Dark Chocolates (Karen put them in my hand–not my fault!  Ok she put three in my hand.  They were gone before I tasted them, so I needed one more…)
  • Giant Leafy Greens salad w/ cherry tomatoes, sugar snap peas, imitation crab meat and light italian dressing with 1% milk

Exercise:

  • 1 mile walk w/ Reilly
  • Spin Class

Ugh.  I need to do some yoga.  After 9 days with virtually no exercise, my legs are tight and sore after spinning. I’m just so tired.  😦 I may yet rally.  We’ll see.  It would burn more calories which would increase my caloric intake which I (of course) exceeded.

Then again I’ve got about 500 calories worth of chocolate in there.  *Sigh*  I didn’t really try to resist them.  They are in the library now.  On my desk.  Staring at me.  Calling to me, saying “I am your favorite kind of chocolate.  Think how creamy and delicious I am.  You know you love me more than Hershey’s dark chocolate, because I am Dove Dark chocolate and I melt in your mouth.”  So then I put one in my mouth and suck to feel it melt away whist coating my tongue in its chocolate glory, dissolving to delicious nothingness.  But then I get greedy and want more chocolatey goodness so I bite into it–another wonderful sensation altogether–and chew and swallow it’s creamy glory.  Then I’m sad I didn’t let it dissolve so I try again.  Same failure.  I should give up.  (You really need to eat those things with a good Pinot Noir anyway, or it’s a complete waste.)

I commented on the hardship of chocolate accessibility on facebook today, and Dosa and Sunny are agreed to continue this TBT hell another two weeks, so I said fuck it and jumped on that bandwagon, too.  At least we’ll be miserable (and skinny bitches) together.  Rowdy I’ve noticed has responded with “likes” and amused comments, but no affirmation of another two weeks.  Piper and Newt are completely ignoring us crazies, though. (Can’t say I blame them.)  Anyway, December 15th.  We can make it.

I have to say, though, if I’m going through this misery another two weeks, Ima fucking do this shit right.  No more damn chocolate all day long.  No more cheat-kends or full cheat days.  I’m not gonna say no cheating, because that’s a recipe for disaster, but I don’t want to go all out ever.  That’s what got me off the bandwagon in the first place.  So cheat meals or cheat treats.  Maybe like one a day.  One glass of wine or one chocolate or if it’s a “cheat day,” one meal or one six pack.  No going nuts. Something like that.  We’ll see how it goes.

As I was warming up for Spin Class this evening, perusing the December Fitness Guide, looking at all the classes I might be able to attend during finals week (when we have half days at school) or during my two week break, I thought “maybe I should TBT another three weeks–til December 21!”  And about 25 minutes later when the sweat started pouring and my legs started shaking I realized that was the crazy talking.  The point is to change habits and move forward positively.  Exercising more.  Eating healthier and less.  Managing those extra “empty” calories.  I’m going longer because I don’t think I’m there yet.  I’m giving myself an extra two weeks to get there.  To remind myself what empty calories can do and that I am capable of avoiding them.

Before this TBT, I didn’t exercise outside of derby.  I won’t stop when TBT is over, and I shouldn’t.  Continuing to exercise after TBT ends doesn’t mean I should extend TBT–I shouldn’t.  I should move forward with these new habits I’ve taught myself.  After the 15th, though, I will be done with this “dieting” bullshit.  I fucking hate it.  Hate.  Loathe.  Ughhh.  But it’s good for me, and I need to learn to manage my caloric intake better.

I think that’s all for now.

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