Blend Together:
1/4 cup Almond Butter
1 cup Almond Milk
1.5 bananas
2 tbl chia seeds
2 tbl whey protein
Optional: 1 tbl. Hershey’s Special Dark Syrup
* That’s not Starbucks in my cup… 😉
Blend Together:
1/4 cup Almond Butter
1 cup Almond Milk
1.5 bananas
2 tbl chia seeds
2 tbl whey protein
Optional: 1 tbl. Hershey’s Special Dark Syrup
* That’s not Starbucks in my cup… 😉
Food:
Exercise:
So. On the bright side: I finished most of the bad food that I’ve been stuffing my face with. Unfortunately, there’s still some Dove Dark Chocolates at home. And people have been giving me Valentine’s candy. Eventually, though, if I stop buying it… I’ll stop eating it. Maybe.
I was going to get up early and go to Spin yesterday morning since I haven’t been in two weeks? Yeah. Didn’t happen. Partly cuz I didn’t wanna, and mostly cuz the guy who was gonna cover the library never got back to me… Maybe when I start going again, I’ll stop stuffing my face with everything and start feeling better.
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The rest of this is me whining.
I sat in the Port-a-Potty and cried yesterday. Couldn’t suck ’em back any longer. That was a first. And hopefully a last. Crying in the bathroom? Ok. Crying in a PVC outhouse filled with excrement? Yeah. That’s a new low.
So I’m kind of back to what Bob asked me a long time ago. What do I love about derby? What has me driving 45 minutes each direction during rush hour and blizzards and traffic when there are other things to be doing three times a week?
It’s hard. But I always manage to succeed. I work hard and I do well and I’m a fucking badass on that track. And Roller Derby is a badass sport. And I have badass friends who I’m constantly so impressed by and proud of.
Except… this time it was hard. And I failed. This is so hard to admit, but maybe it will help me let go. In August/September… my name came up. For Fight Club. As a fleeting “now that we have 18, we could…” And obviously nothing came out of that. But I heard about it. And laughed. Then heard about it again, and it was pointed out to me that with two skaters leaving and one out for six months… oh. So I got my shit together. The one goal of that entire 3.5 month TBT: if I’m going to be on Fight Club, I have to do RMRG proud. Because that is what RMRG deserves. If it’s going to be me, I’m going to be the best me I can be. And I was. I rose to that challenge.
It just turns out the best me wasn’t good enough. And RMRG didn’t want me anyway. At first, I thought we were wrong to put 20 skaters above me. But now. I wonder how I even managed to be considered in the first place.
So… even if I failed… I still got a lot out of that first TBT. I look better. I feel better. I am skating better. Right now I’m failing at this second TBT. Tomorrow we’ll be halfway through. I need to suck it up and own this second half. Even if I’m not one of RMRGs best 20 skaters… I need to be the best skater I can be to set an example for the newbies. To represent RMRG well when the Contenders go forth into the world. Etc. So I should sack up.
Today, I woke early for Spin Class. I was up and walking Reilly before sunrise (6:30) so that I could make my 8am class and still get to the Ale House for brunch with my derby wife (Feist E One from the Boulder County Bombers) and Alessia (her daughter.)
Spin Class. Was. Terrible. I mean it was bad. Kill Bill, naturally. We did a five minute sprint twice, except that the second time he couldn’t tell time and it was only four minutes long. Suri wondered why a 5 minute sprint is bad. Pedaling as fast as you can for five minutes. Nothing else. First–it’s not challenging. Second–it’s boring! And we did it twice! Or at least Bill thinks we did it twice and that’s just as bad. He kept messing up his timing, telling us we’d do something for a minute, then 48 seconds later telling us we were done. The worst, though, is that he drones on and on and on about ridiculous republican bullshit forever. We missed several intervals and over-rested today because of it. I was super annoyed. My usual bike was taken today, so I sat in a different one. Conveniently there was a poll in my line of vision blocking Bill out. Also, I couldn’t hear his droning as well. It was sort of Charlie Brown style. I zoned out for one of our rests/his stories, and he talked so long I got cold! This was 45 minutes in to the class. There was no reason for me to be cold. Ughhh. He was up there droning on about another instructor telling him not to waste her time–meanwhile I’m sitting there on my bike thinking I wish he wasn’t wasting mine. Damn. The thing that really kills me, though, is the 31 miles my bike said I’d ridden (that’s a lot–we did a lot of sprinting) and the fact that my thighs and calves hurt later in the day. So I guess it wasn’t a total waste. Still–I can’t wait til Tuesday. Leslie Spin. I miss her.
Bill has these sayings. “Nobody cares how much you know until they know how much you care–and I care.” *Vomit.* Today was: “Train Insane or Remain the Same.” *Double Vomit.* I think I’ll start Contenders practice with this quote on Monday. Hahahahaha. Yeah right. I am starting w/ a quote, though.
Anyway, so that.
Food:
Lops made this delicious Celery Salad tonight–it was so sweet too. She made healthy food because she knew some of the Contenders are on the TBT (our holiday party was tonight.) I ❤ Lops. And all the rest of the Cont-ies. I had a nice night with them tonight.
Brussels Sprouts and Shiitake Lo Mein Recipe
Wow. This was amazing. Mmm….
Changes to the recipe.
I can’t explain how good this was. Without Soy Sauce, a little bland, but… still a rich garlic flavor (that I love.) Only put a splash of Soy Sauce on, though. Tim and I both overdid it. 🙂 When I make this again, I will splurge and use two cartons of Shitake Mushrooms. Also, I might add some tofu or chicken to make it a one-skillet-meal. Tonight, I served it with Thai Fish Sauce and Lime Chicken. The flavors definitely complemented one another, but I think each can stand alone.
I’m not doing pictures because I literally posted them two weeks ago. Things haven’t changed much since then, though I’ve been indulging in everything bad for me and it is absolutely catching up at least in terms of how I’ve been feeling (lethargic and bloated with digestive problems to boot. I’ve been so sedentary, I get dizzy when I stand up.)
I’m doing this again. Why? I want to form habits. I want them ingrained in me like second nature. They aren’t quite there yet.
My “big idea” goals are: improve derby skills, balance my life, maintain weight at 145-150lbs. To achieve these three things, I will:
Balance is going to be difficult. I’m so focused on derby, I leave little room for work or my husband, and those two things should come first. Tim especially. I enjoy cooking, and started the last TBT off more cooking/eating well than exercising, and I shifted somewhere in the middle. I want to even everything out this go. I don’t know if I can do it all, but I’m hopeful.
Oh–also–it is the height of basketball season. I run the scoreboard for the team at my school, and they have home games 1-2 times per week through January and February. That will cut into my exercising regime.
And I’m getting back into the swing of things today, but I’m not really starting until Monday, January 7.
Final Measurements:
Differences in Measurements from September 3:
A couple of quick notes. First–January 2012 and July/August 2012, I was weighing in closer to 165/166lbs. So if you heard me say I’d lost 16lbs, that’s why. I’m also unsure of that bicep measurement. I don’t know if I flexed or not at the beginning, but I know my number bands are not fitting now, so I know my biceps are smaller… (I lost fat but didn’t gain muscle there–yet.) 3.5″ off my waist is totally BA, though! And 10lbs! Woot woot.
Moving forward. I’m taking now til January 2 off-ish. I will still exercise and try to eat healthier, but I’m not going to beat myself up over Holiday Treats. Then January I want to do something else to continue to stay fit/tone up my arms and core (new goal: Michelle Obama arms and Bijou abs.) Also to continue exercising outside of derby and eating healthy. Yay.
Some other take-aways. I started this TBT out more eating healthy than exercising more, and ended it more focused on exercise. I’d really like a balance there, but it’s so hard to do both. I love to cook and I have missed doing it these past few weeks (months.) Hopefully over my Winter Break I will have time to cook healthy and exercise and moving forward in the new year to do both.
(Here are my before pictures:)
Food: 2331
Exercise:
Oi. So yesterday I got to school thinking I’d have time before basketball to take Reilly for a walk. I was wrong. As a result, I sat on my rear most of the day and didn’t get very many steps in at all. 😦
The cake pops called to me again at lunch. OMFG they are soooo good. On the bright side, I did figure out what flavor they were on the fourth one yesterday–amaretto. With coconut in white chocolate rolled in almonds. Holy heaven on earth.
Since I thought I’d be heading home prior to the basketball games, I also didn’t pack a dinner. Which worked out. Probably because of the cake pops. I spread my lunch and snacks out through the day and made it til I got home, starving. Managed to remind myself about the cake pops and eat moderately rather than ravish the pantry. I passed on Tim’s first offer of a glass of wine, but realized I probably wouldn’t sleep w/o it and ended up having a small glass (for me–prolly still a large glass for anyone else.)
On the bright side… managed to shed those vacation pounds! Bam. Weighed in at 149.6 this morning. Still a few tenths heavier than my lightest, but sweet! And Sweets practice tonight and Spin Class tomorrow and Speed/Off skates training Friday and Body Pump Saturday mean I’m probably ending this thing on a positive note. Which makes these last two weeks of hell worth it. (This all assumes I don’t completely fuck myself over at Dane’s party Friday night.) I may have to do a final weigh/measure in on Friday instead of Sat/Sun. We’ll see.
Food: 1758
Exercise:
So I didn’t eat as much yesterday. I think the protein in my breakfast kept me full through the morning, and then I was cognizant of the calories in my lunch. Chili w/ fritos, sour cream, and cheddar cheese. And three Cake Pops (Colin’s mom sent Cake Pops as her Monday treat. OMG. Delicious.) So I didn’t eat before practice, just carrots afterward.
Practice was meh. Its a level-up week, so there were several girls new to Mondays. Lots of standing around, and some basic drills. I didn’t get much of a workout in.
Which really isn’t going to bode well for the four cake pops and 0 exercise I’m rocking today… 😦
In other news… Blew and I are going to be Contenders Captains. Yay! And Rad Die… … well. *Blushes.* Rad Die was asking me about my derby wife. So I jokingly asked if that was a proposition, to which Die said “just wondering.” So I told her all about my Feist E. One and… and… and… well Die said too bad and… well then we talked some more and I asked if she was courting me and she said yes. *BLUSHING PROFUSELY.* o.m.g. Don’t tell anyone.
Soo… needless to say I’m having a pretty good day. 😀