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Satisfecho

Food:

  • 2 egg muffins, banana, 1% milk, coffee, carmel macchiato sugar free creamer
  • greek yogurt w/ fruit and granola, apple
  • 1% milk, greek yogurt tuna on wheat with spinach.  bell peppers, cucumbers, hummus.
  • Cheesy Penne with Broccoli and baked chicken breasts.  Red wine.  Lots.

Exercise:

  • 50 toe push ups
  • 50 sit ups (25 leg lifts, 25 cobras)

Tim and Misto convinced me that it would be okay to miss practice yesterday, even w/ a TT30 mix-up scrimmage.  (Snow = bad roads.)  Which was good because the scrimmage was cancelled.  So I went shopping!  😀  I’ve decided that since overweight and old teachers wear leggings to work, I should too. (My legs look way better, it’s a disservice to the people if I don’t wear them…) I bought some online at Kohl’s, but they fit a little awkwardly, so I went to try the smaller size on.  Ended up keeping the size I originally purchased (though ironically one of the packages says “M” but is actually “L” so I will have to return today to exchange them…), but picked up a pair of clearance real suede F-Uggs and some long sweaters for my new leggings look.  (Rocking them today.  Gray leggings, F-Uggs, lime green sweater!  Pearls.) Then I went to Levi’s and (sorry Rebel) exchanged the black skinny jeans for a new pair and some gray ones.  They look like khaki so I can also wear these to work, and those colors didn’t come in strait leg.  And it was 2 for $80.  Again.  And they gave me a coupon.  Again (bastards.)  Who wants a Levi’s Coupon?

Also–went to the Country Pedaler bike shop in Castle Rock and got some fancy cleats for my fancy new shoes.  I’m so excited to try them out tonight!  But I may hit practice instead… not sure.  Misto-run practice w/ scrimmage after is promising…  but spin…  new shoes…  we’ll see.

My shopping prevented me from so much as walking the dog yesterday, but you know what?  I don’t care!  It was awesome.  I had a great day.  I made more of that delicious Cooking Light penne (with chicken this time) and hung out with Tim.  Since he’ll be gone this weekend, that was an excellent use of time.  Plus I didn’t have to sit in traffic and snow trying to get to the War*house or risk driving off the “cliff” by the Rec Center like the last time I went there in the snow.  “Satisfecho,” incidentally, means “satisfied” en español, and is a phrase Tim used to use when we dated after we had a good meal and had that awesome feeling.  I’m applying it to life right now.  I’m content, I’m satisfecho.

Oh–and I was in bed asleep before 10pm last night.  Woke up feeling refreshed–first time that’s happened on a week day in a while.  I did take a Tylenol PM last night… Push-ups/Sit-ups are soooo much easier on a morning like this morning than they are after a late practice when I get home late and don’t sleep all night…  Gotta work on that.

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If my journey were “Lord of the Rings,” this is the part where they are walking, walking, walking… walking, walking, walking…

Food:

  • Honey Nut Cheerios w/ 1% milk, banana, coffee, caramel macchiato sugar free creamer
  • Greek Yogurt w/ fruit and granola, apple
  • …  four mini old fashioned glazed donuts.
  • turkey and tons of swiss on wheat with Crystal Light and Cottage Cheese.
  • … the rest of the work dove dark chocolates
  • mini twix & dark milky way
  • salmon and reduced fat cream cheese with cucumbers on wheat thins
  • … the rest of the dark chocolate reese’s
  • Cliff Shot Bloks
  • Luna Bar
  • Veggies and Hummus.
  • … the rest of the cherry cordial ice cream…

Exercise:

  • 50 toe pushups
  • 50 sit ups
  • 3hr practice

So.  On the bright side: I finished most of the bad food that I’ve been stuffing my face with. Unfortunately, there’s still some Dove Dark Chocolates at home.  And people have been giving me Valentine’s candy.  Eventually, though, if I stop buying it… I’ll stop eating it.  Maybe.

I was going to get up early and go to Spin yesterday morning since I haven’t been in two weeks?  Yeah.  Didn’t happen.  Partly cuz I didn’t wanna, and mostly cuz the guy who was gonna cover the library never got back to me…  Maybe when I start going again, I’ll stop stuffing my face with everything and start feeling better.

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The rest of this is me whining.

I sat in the Port-a-Potty and cried yesterday.  Couldn’t suck ’em back any longer.  That was a first.  And hopefully a last.  Crying in the bathroom?  Ok.  Crying in a PVC outhouse filled with excrement?  Yeah.  That’s a new low.

So I’m kind of back to what Bob asked me a long time ago.  What do I love about derby?  What has me driving 45 minutes each direction during rush hour and blizzards and traffic when there are other things to be doing three times a week?

It’s hard.  But I always manage to succeed.  I work hard and I do well and I’m a fucking badass on that track.  And Roller Derby is a badass sport.  And I have badass friends who I’m constantly so impressed by and proud of.

Except… this time it was hard.  And I failed.  This is so hard to admit, but maybe it will help me let go.  In August/September…  my name came up.  For Fight Club.  As a fleeting “now that we have 18, we could…”  And obviously nothing came out of that.  But I heard about it.  And laughed.  Then heard about it again, and it was pointed out to me that with two skaters leaving and one out for six months…  oh.  So I got my shit together.  The one goal of that entire 3.5 month TBT: if I’m going to be on Fight Club, I have to do RMRG proud.  Because that is what RMRG deserves.  If it’s going to be me, I’m going to be the best me I can be.  And I was.  I rose to that challenge.

It just turns out the best me wasn’t good enough.  And RMRG didn’t want me anyway.  At first, I thought we were wrong to put 20 skaters above me.  But now.  I wonder how I even managed to be considered in the first place.

So… even if I failed…  I still got a lot out of that first TBT.  I look better.  I feel better.  I am skating better.  Right now I’m failing at this second TBT.  Tomorrow we’ll be halfway through.  I need to suck it up and own this second half.  Even if I’m not one of RMRGs best 20 skaters…  I need to be the best skater I can be to set an example for the newbies.  To represent RMRG well when the Contenders go forth into the world.  Etc.  So I should sack up.

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