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Lead Legged

Food: way over yet again.  fuuuuck.

  • Honey nut cheerios, 1% milk, banana, coffee, hazelnut sugar free creamer
  • Naked Protein Zone Mango Smoothie (yuck–the protein ones are gritty,) clementine
  • 6″ turkey on wheat from subway, w/ swiss cheese, honey mustard, and all of the veggies
  • Yoplait Greek w/ fruit and granola, apple
  • 2 no bake energy bites.  😦
  • triscuits w/ cream cheese and smoked salmon (5)
  • almonds
  • Chicken breast w/ dijon mustard and honey, brown rice (plain).
  • Wine

Exercise:

  • 50 toe push ups
  • 50 crunches (25 regular, 25 cobra)
  • short Reilly walk
  • Spin Class

I was exhausted at work today.  Falling asleep in a 7:15am meeting, falling asleep at lunch.  I left early and passed out the second I got home.  Okay, that’s a lie.  First I stuffed my face with not one, but two energy bites (at 270 calories a piece.  yikes!  better than a peanut butter cookie, I guess… I dunno.)  Funny–I had been chatting w/ Die on facebook, and she teased me just as I fell into the sleep of the dead.  I think she thought I was offended when I hadn’t responded.  Haha.  Oops.

Spin class.  My legs hurt and felt like lead, but…  I’m wondering if my exhaustion and overeating are the result of seasonal depression (or any kind of depression) so I figured Spin Class would make me feel better.  The only exercise I’ve had since last Tuesday has been derby, which is not as…  relaxing?  calming?  I dunno.  as regular exercise.  At Spin class, I’m just “Lindsay,” andI can turn my brain off and just go, you know? And when it’s over I feel that good exhaustion and a sort of relief of having let go of my stress, etc.  So–despite being exhausted, I went.  I *think* that was a good decision.  I seem to be in a more positive mood.  Tired, but positive.  For now.  😉

Took a nice, super hot epsom salt bath when I got home.  Mmmm…  With wine, of course. Feeling pretty good, now.  I do want some pie, though.  (Un)Fortunately, I don’t have any.  😦  Sad day.

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Ouch

Food: Way the fuck over

  • Honey Nut Cheerios, 1% milk, coffee, sugar free hazelnut creamer
  • Cafeteria biscuit w/ gravy (sooo salty), clementine, VitaRain Zero
  • Apple, 1% milk, natural PB & simply J on wheat.  2 homemade bran muffins
  • Curry Chicken Noodle leftovers from Tuesday
  • No Bake Energy Bite, most of a Naked Protein Shake
  • Snap Peas, Hummus, Red Wine

Exercise:

  • 50 toe push ups
  • 50 crunches (25 regular, 25 cobra)
  • 30 min scrimmage
  • 2 hr. Gaygan practice
  • 1 hr. FC practice

I’m down on life again.  Maybe I am S.A.D.  You know, Seasonal Affective Disorder, people who are sad in January.  Maybe it’s PMS.  I don’t fucking know.  Anyway.  I was mopey and craving Biscuits and Gravy from the cafeteria.  Got them.  Totally worth their salty delicious 500+ calories.  Lunch–Colin’s mom sent homemade bran-ish muffins.  I had two, even though they were from Monday and not as delicious as they could have been.  Walked Reilly, ate some leftovers, left early for practice.

It’s sort of fucked up.  I leave half an hour early and I get to practice at the same time.  Traffic.  Ugh.  Scrimmaged for 30 mins.  I pulled my left ass check.  It hurt the rest of practice.  Gaygan practice–100 laps.  I dropped out at 60.  I just don’t have the mental toughness to push through right now.  My back only started hurting at 60, which is pretty fucking good (it usually hurts around 30 and I suffer through til around 70-80.)  My legs were also super tired.  And my butt cramp.  And I was doing the hyperventilating thing and having a hard time breathing again.  Otherwise… practice was good…ish…I think.

Then Travel Team (Fight Club) practice 8-9pm.  I don’t know how to explain that despite being re-christened “Travel Team” practice, Wednesdays are so clearly “Fight Club” practice still.  I was exhausted.  I had most of an Energy Bite and most of a Protein Smoothie thing and we rolled around hitting each other and doing the flippy spinny thing.  I like flippy spinny.  I’m decently good at flippy spinny.  We practiced pairing and dropping back after hitting a jammer out–the partner who hadn’t done the hitting–basically exactly what Quigley did to me last weekend.  But I was so exhausted.  Die told me after Monday that I need to stop and turn around quicker.  So naturally during this drill my stopping and turning around was ridiculously slow.  I had partnered w/ Eve and Cass.  Cass is freaking amazing.  I’d barely dropped back five feet before she was back in bounds and I was clockwise blocking her.  She was also really encouraging, reminding Eve and I we were almost done, to speed up, etc.  I like Cass.  I fell on my bum knee.  It hurts today.

Drove my miserable sorry ass home and decided I wanted to sit up for a bit and drink a glass of wine.  I haven’t been sleeping.  Derby thoughts keeping me awake.  The wine (and muscle relaxor) totally helped.  But this morning I’m sleepy and groggy and blaaah again.

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